thirtieth.

honestly.
i had trouble spelling out the title of this post.
hehe.
i had to google up the right spelling.

review of what has been happening:
1) going to bloody graduate in a MONTH :)
2) decided, to go solo for a while :))
3) THESIS :(

yeah.
that's pretty much it.
but,
still,
these past few days,
i have been BORED.
so,
i've been strolling around,
reading other people's blogs.

and WOW.
i see, KOREANS plastered EVERYWHERE.
*coughs*
(especially on hanis's and athirah's blogs)
*coughs*

what is the deal with the korean people?
why are so many people attracted to them?
honestly.
is it because they have funny looking eyes?
or the hair?

sheeeshh.
hahaha.
actually, that's all i wanted to say.
nothing interesting has been going on since joe left.
:(((

but, i will update on saturday.
gonna be doing something interesting friday night :)
so, just wait up.
TTFN :)

P/S: i've been watching GLEE :)

twenty-ninth

hello world.
salutations :D
my god,
again, haven't updated in so long.
but, ppl also haven't been updating in a long time.
so, what has happened?

i think i''m in love.
with a girl.
who's 17 this year.
WTF?!?!
24-18= 6 years of age difference.
O__o

this CANNOT happen.
honestly.
i might as well fall in love in with a 4 year old kid.
i mean, the age difference,,
IS TOO BIG.

anyway,
funny story actually.
i made her a note to give during recess.
so, i asked one of her friends to pass it.
her table was actually quite close to mine.
so, i saw her reaction.

her friend gave it to her.
then she was like,
"oh, thanks"
then she put in under her plate.
what the hell?!?!?!
you don't even bother to read it?!?!?!
*sigh*

then, i asked her friend,
just to make sure what her reaction was.
and her friend said,
"i don't know. she just acted like it was nothing"
my GOD.
that just makes me want her more.
!)*_!*!*#*#()#

and,
it's her birthday today.
so, i plan on giving her a gift.
i wrapped it all up already :DD
and, made her a birthday note.
so, today,
instead of passing it to her friend,
i'm gonna give it MYSELF.
with jacob :PP

blargh, blargh.
i hope things turn out okay T___T
anwyay.
that's it i guess.

P/S: @aida: yes, yes. i know. i might be making the wrong decision. and yes, i know she's malay. i don't care :D

TTFN :)

twenty-eighth

let me just start this with,

i hate seniors :P

haha.

anyway,

yes, aida,

i have been on leave.

thank u very much for realizing.

and,

one more reason for me not updating is because,

i kinda forgot my blogger password.

then, just now,

i finally saw the "forgot your password" button.

O__o

anyway,

i miss everyone.

i haven't been at school lately.

not lately,

i mean, like, 2 weeks?

yupp,

and why was this?

it was because i was involved in the exchang student program.

yes, me, exchanged?

NO WAY!

but, yes.

WAY.

:DD

anyway, i was sent to INDIA. :)

to the Modern School of India, in New Delhi.

it was fun.

everything was cool.

temperature, HOTT.

toilets, umm, not so cool. :P

bahaha.

anyway,

it was fun.

an experience.

met some new awesome people.

one of those awesome people were,

Jeffrey Lloyd.

aida likes him *coughs*

@aida: you kinda stalk him now don't u?

haha, jk, jk.

anyway,,

what else happened there?

we went to taj mahal.

i mean,

lots of stuff.

maybe i'm just too lazy to type,

hehe.

hmm,

i apologize for not updating in a long time.

and, i'm glad to be back at school again.

yay :)

oh yeah.

@athirah: joe says he misses u. :PP

that, i'm serious :D

pretty much it?

i disappeared to india. :)

hehe :))

oh yeah,

i totally got bashed by one of my seniors at school,

just because i told him he got the factors of ratios wrong.

wth is wrong wif u man?

i wanted to save ur smart ass from getting laughed at.

anyway,

that's it :)

till next time :DD

P/S: @aida: keep stalking. but remember, he has a GIRLFRIEND.

P/SS: @crabman: i'm sorry i didn't get u a souvenir. i didn't know what to get.

TTFN :)

twenty-seventh

hey peeps :)
steve is finally updating.
awesome?
i think not.
this update, should be,
a very sad one.
:(((so, we start this post with a rabbit.
but, not just any rabbit.
this, is MY rabbit! :P
his name WAS timo.
unfortunately,
timo has passed on.
and, is now, in the hands,
of god.
*take good care of him, god*
:((

so,
the storyline.
i woke up in the morning.
went to the kitchen.
wanted to get some breakfast.
O__o

timo was happily "sleeping" inside his basket.
so, he slept.
and slept.
and slept.

i just decided he was sleeping too long,
so i decided to "try" and wake him up.
but, when i held him,
i couldn't feel his heart beating anymore
FTW? :((

he was such a happy rabbit.
always jumping around,
eating cereal.
pooping everywhere.
oh,
how much i miss those times.
it was all just like yesterday :(

but,
maybe it was yesterday
*shrugs*

so, timo, is probably now,
in heaven,,
happily eating cereal.
yes, my happy cereal rabbit :)

anyway,,
immediately after that,
i called crabman,,
told him it was,
"an emergency timo problem"
he came over half an hour later,
with dave
*rolls eyes*

he confirmed,,
timo,,
was in fact,,
dead.
*cries*

why timo, why?
why must you leave me alone??
*sigh*

so timo,
rest in peace.
i'll never forget our 4 years together.
*i got him for my 20th birthday :D*

goodbye.
everyone.
and timo.
i will post, my next post, after this post.
:PP

"should we like, flush him down the toilet?"
-crabman :P

twenty-sixth

Because, I finally learned, FRIENDS, are NOT FOREVER.

tough lesson i learnt yesterday.
just, no matter how close we are,
he'll leave.
whether he wants to,
or is forced to.

during 4th period,
Modern Mathematics,
joe was called to the principle's office.
he came back during 6th period,
Psychology.

he just came back,
hugged me,
and whispered to me,
"I'm sorry".
and, he left.

just like that?
we IM'ed,
last night.
he told me,
his mom had to ship him to Australia,
"for better job opportunities"

and,
he came over,
last night.
right after the IM'ing.
it was fun.
he said he wasn't gonna be coming to school anymore.
we cried.
we laughed.
we danced.

it was our last night together,
i didn't go to school today,
i sent him to the airport.
i was okay,
i was fine.

until,,
until reality struck me square in the head,
i wasn't gonna see joe ever again.
we've been friends since kindergarten,
and, he's leaving.
he's leaving for good.
far away.
veryvery far away.

i broke down,
he did too.
again, we cried.
his flight was about to board,
we hugged,
for the last time.
he kissed my forehead.
i laughed.
and, he walked away,
not turning back even once.

but, i knew why he didn't look back,
it would've probably been too painful.
if it hurt me,
i couldn't imagine how much it would hurt an emotional guy like him.

so, he left.
he left.
the same words repeated through my head.
so, i left.

but, the last thing he said to me was,
"i'm leaving, taking with me all the memories we shared"
it made me sad.
he made it seem as though it was the end of the world.

now, i regret,
never doing all the things i wanted to with him,
when i think back,
at all the time we wasted,
how that could've been used for better.
*sigh*

also,
i just realized that,
i'll have no deskmate.
O__o

but,
i knew,
i knew it would happen one day.
i knew that one day,
he would leave.

i thought i was prepared,
but,
hey, turns out i wasn't.
but, at least,
i got to say goodbye.

JOEY, i'm sorry,
for all i've done,
i wished, we could spend more time together.
i never wanted you to leave.
but, sometimes,
reality has to be faced.
and, you took all the memories along with you,
i'll keep it solely in my heart.
i promise,
i'll never forget.

twenty-fifth

PHOBIA.
i am scared of indian people.
weird right?
i am scared of their,,
teeth,
hair,
smell,
ALMOST EVERYTHING.
i sound simply retarded now.
O__O
*runs*

twenty-fourth

Warning: I did not write this to offend anyone at all. it's just a matter of opinion.

today,
i'd like to address the issue of homosexuality.
question on everyone's mind,
is it wrong?

for some people,
maybe.
everyone has their own opinions right?
but, in my opinion,
i don't think it's wrong.
it's not odd.
it's common in the real world now isn't it?

but sometimes,
i ponder,
why do some people,
hate gay people?

isn't it supposed to be normal by now?
it's not odd to see a swishy guy walking down the streets now isn't it?

homophobes;
people who are afraid or dislike gay people.
why do such people exist?
why do they hate gay people?
are gay people not humans as well?
do they deserve to be hated just because they are slightly different?
how would you like it if,
somebody went up to you,
and teased you just because you were a tiny bit different?
(for e.g, if you're a little bit on the chubby side)

wouldn't you get offended?
sometimes,
you just have to put yourself in other people's shoes.
again,
how would you like it if,
someone went up to you,
and called you,
names like, bitch, whore, ho.
you would so totally be offended right?

so,
conclusion,
nobody likes to be bashed.
end of line.

love has no boundaries;
of course.
i agree.
haven't you heard of weird stuff like;
siblings getting married?
twins getting married?
teacher and student relationships?

heh.
of course you have.
so,
if siblings can get married,
(who are actually related fully by blood)
why can't 2 people of the same-sex get married?
(who are not related by blood)

yes, yes.
i know,
god created,
Adam and Eve NOT Adam and Steve.
i get it.
i do.
but,,
but,,
but,,
i really can't oppose to that statement.
*sigh*
it is written in the bible,
and every other religious book that,
men and women are created for each other.
fine, controversy will arise.
i should not be talking about religion.
but face the facts;

sometimes,
people are just,
naturally gay.
what to do?
and, when they hear about how "wrong" it is,
they go into a state of depression.
and, then,
they "willingly" marry the opposite sex,
just so they are not labeled as 'gay'.
isn't that just cruel?
people make the term 'gay',
just sound so awful.
seriously.

so here,
i question,
is it wrong to marry someone you love?
or, would you much prefer to marry someone you don't and be unhappy?

it's a choice.
really.
it's either be true to yourself, or lie for the rest of your life.
decisions, matter.

in my opinion,
same-sex marriage,
is fine.
marriage is about love, not gender.
am i right?
and, according to a french saying,
juste une question d'amour
which also translates to,
it's just a question of love.

all i'm saying,
if you're happy,
go along with it.
it's not wrong to fight for your own rights.
everyone deserves happiness.
nobody deserves to be bashed for chasing their happiness.
don't force yourself into something you're not.
because all that would do,
is hurt yourself, and others around you.

and to all people,
"homosexuality should not be treated as a mental disease"
you can't cure it.
it's just natural.
you might pretend to be cured,
but in actuality,
you're not.
also according to another saying,
"speak loud and proud for what you are"

so,
some people may wonder.
why in the world?
would someone as goofy as me,
write something as serious as this?
well,
it's because,
something happened today,
a very serious matter actually.

my class was off to the lab for biology,
when we got back,
i was pretty shocked to see that a few places were trashed,
(a few as in, those openly gay people)
and one of them was crabman.
so, i got pretty pissed.
they were, scribbles on the table,
hateful letters,
torn books.
etc, etc.

and,
we found out who did it.
i think they had to face expulsion.
i wasn't sure.
anyway,
it was the same person who i bashed on post twenty-one?
yea, twenty-one.

crabman was pretty down.
but, we managed to cheer him up:)
but still,
i know the person reads my blog.
and, i hope my point is clear now to him.
he is kind of a dumbass.
so, yeah.
get it now JUSTIN?
O__O

anyway,
as i said before,
everyone has their own opinions.
and, i know,
i might be hated by a lot of people after this,
for expressing my positive opinion.
but hey?
i don't care.
he's my friend.
but i still wonder why they didn't do anything to dave.
pfft. :P

my post ends here.
thank you for listening.
and, to you, JUSTIN,
you can go die,
you're just one of those people,
when you die,
i won't give a damn.

steve is very frustrated.
people shouldn't be treating other people like this.
*groangroan*
P/S: no offence again. except for JUSTIN and his buds.
P/SS: I'm sorry if you hate me now. I just had to. for crabman :)