thirty-second

hola!~
world cup fever is in the air.
just to rest some suspicions,
i might've been born is brazil,
but no.
i don't like brazil.
i'm going germany all the way.
okay?

so,
manymany things have been going on since the last time i posted.
how long has it been?
3 months?
4 months?
5 months?

well,
something like that :P
first issue,
i graduated.
FINALLY.
after THAT long.
like, 6 years.
hahh.
so, i'm now officially working.
but, i find,
that i have muchmuch free time on my hands.
and easy to say,
being a neurologist is quite easy.

BULLSHIT.

above statements,
are crapp.
let me correct my statements,
i DON'T HAVE muchmuch free time on my hands.
and,
being a neurologist is NOT quite easy.

all and all,
i've been busy (:

second issue,
i'm SINGLE ((:
finally got over that freshman i was "totally in love with"
my badd.
i was never in love with her.
probably just admired her 'badass-ness'

third issue,
i got a new hair-cut.
it looks, bad.
i'll go put some photos of it later (;

fourth issue,
nobody wished my birthday.
honestly.
joe, nothing?
aida, no email?
i was disappointed.
but, i've moved on.
**sobs

fifth issue,
i miss everyone.
ever since my graduation,
i really haven't been contacting anyone.
like,
no crabman.
no dave.
no jacob either.
have i been THAT busy to actually not have the time?
i wonder myself.
or have i just been to ARROGANT to actually contact anyone?
still wondering.

for that,
i'm sorry.
i didn't mean to lose contact.
or to drift apart.
we've been friends for too long for me to just let it end like that.
so, hey.
call me yeah?

that's probably a recap of how everything's been.
growing-up is not an easy phase.
but, everyone has to go through it.
so do I.

"GROWING OLD is mandatory. GROWING UP is optional"
-leah

thirty-first

BACK!

first line i wanted to write,
haha.
so, explaining my recent hiatus.
it was because EVERYONE was on hiatus.

opened up joe's blog.
"HIATUS"
opened up aida's blog.
"ON HIATUS"
and then,
went to a few other people's blogs.
"HIATUSHIATUS"
saw the same thing overandover again.
got bored.
so,
then, i decided,
'let's go on hiatus as well. in silence'
and, i finally thought about this blog
while i was eating lunch.

came back home.
tried to log in.
hahh.
didn't work out.
i forgot my password.

'DAMMIT'

pressed the 'forgot your password?' button,
went through all the required procedures,
and, here i am (:

all and all,
let's just conclude,
I'm BACK.
this time,
with muchmuch more tales to tell ((:

thirtieth.

honestly.
i had trouble spelling out the title of this post.
hehe.
i had to google up the right spelling.

review of what has been happening:
1) going to bloody graduate in a MONTH :)
2) decided, to go solo for a while :))
3) THESIS :(

yeah.
that's pretty much it.
but,
still,
these past few days,
i have been BORED.
so,
i've been strolling around,
reading other people's blogs.

and WOW.
i see, KOREANS plastered EVERYWHERE.
*coughs*
(especially on hanis's and athirah's blogs)
*coughs*

what is the deal with the korean people?
why are so many people attracted to them?
honestly.
is it because they have funny looking eyes?
or the hair?

sheeeshh.
hahaha.
actually, that's all i wanted to say.
nothing interesting has been going on since joe left.
:(((

but, i will update on saturday.
gonna be doing something interesting friday night :)
so, just wait up.
TTFN :)

P/S: i've been watching GLEE :)

twenty-ninth

hello world.
salutations :D
my god,
again, haven't updated in so long.
but, ppl also haven't been updating in a long time.
so, what has happened?

i think i''m in love.
with a girl.
who's 17 this year.
WTF?!?!
24-18= 6 years of age difference.
O__o

this CANNOT happen.
honestly.
i might as well fall in love in with a 4 year old kid.
i mean, the age difference,,
IS TOO BIG.

anyway,
funny story actually.
i made her a note to give during recess.
so, i asked one of her friends to pass it.
her table was actually quite close to mine.
so, i saw her reaction.

her friend gave it to her.
then she was like,
"oh, thanks"
then she put in under her plate.
what the hell?!?!?!
you don't even bother to read it?!?!?!
*sigh*

then, i asked her friend,
just to make sure what her reaction was.
and her friend said,
"i don't know. she just acted like it was nothing"
my GOD.
that just makes me want her more.
!)*_!*!*#*#()#

and,
it's her birthday today.
so, i plan on giving her a gift.
i wrapped it all up already :DD
and, made her a birthday note.
so, today,
instead of passing it to her friend,
i'm gonna give it MYSELF.
with jacob :PP

blargh, blargh.
i hope things turn out okay T___T
anwyay.
that's it i guess.

P/S: @aida: yes, yes. i know. i might be making the wrong decision. and yes, i know she's malay. i don't care :D

TTFN :)

twenty-eighth

let me just start this with,

i hate seniors :P

haha.

anyway,

yes, aida,

i have been on leave.

thank u very much for realizing.

and,

one more reason for me not updating is because,

i kinda forgot my blogger password.

then, just now,

i finally saw the "forgot your password" button.

O__o

anyway,

i miss everyone.

i haven't been at school lately.

not lately,

i mean, like, 2 weeks?

yupp,

and why was this?

it was because i was involved in the exchang student program.

yes, me, exchanged?

NO WAY!

but, yes.

WAY.

:DD

anyway, i was sent to INDIA. :)

to the Modern School of India, in New Delhi.

it was fun.

everything was cool.

temperature, HOTT.

toilets, umm, not so cool. :P

bahaha.

anyway,

it was fun.

an experience.

met some new awesome people.

one of those awesome people were,

Jeffrey Lloyd.

aida likes him *coughs*

@aida: you kinda stalk him now don't u?

haha, jk, jk.

anyway,,

what else happened there?

we went to taj mahal.

i mean,

lots of stuff.

maybe i'm just too lazy to type,

hehe.

hmm,

i apologize for not updating in a long time.

and, i'm glad to be back at school again.

yay :)

oh yeah.

@athirah: joe says he misses u. :PP

that, i'm serious :D

pretty much it?

i disappeared to india. :)

hehe :))

oh yeah,

i totally got bashed by one of my seniors at school,

just because i told him he got the factors of ratios wrong.

wth is wrong wif u man?

i wanted to save ur smart ass from getting laughed at.

anyway,

that's it :)

till next time :DD

P/S: @aida: keep stalking. but remember, he has a GIRLFRIEND.

P/SS: @crabman: i'm sorry i didn't get u a souvenir. i didn't know what to get.

TTFN :)

twenty-seventh

hey peeps :)
steve is finally updating.
awesome?
i think not.
this update, should be,
a very sad one.
:(((so, we start this post with a rabbit.
but, not just any rabbit.
this, is MY rabbit! :P
his name WAS timo.
unfortunately,
timo has passed on.
and, is now, in the hands,
of god.
*take good care of him, god*
:((

so,
the storyline.
i woke up in the morning.
went to the kitchen.
wanted to get some breakfast.
O__o

timo was happily "sleeping" inside his basket.
so, he slept.
and slept.
and slept.

i just decided he was sleeping too long,
so i decided to "try" and wake him up.
but, when i held him,
i couldn't feel his heart beating anymore
FTW? :((

he was such a happy rabbit.
always jumping around,
eating cereal.
pooping everywhere.
oh,
how much i miss those times.
it was all just like yesterday :(

but,
maybe it was yesterday
*shrugs*

so, timo, is probably now,
in heaven,,
happily eating cereal.
yes, my happy cereal rabbit :)

anyway,,
immediately after that,
i called crabman,,
told him it was,
"an emergency timo problem"
he came over half an hour later,
with dave
*rolls eyes*

he confirmed,,
timo,,
was in fact,,
dead.
*cries*

why timo, why?
why must you leave me alone??
*sigh*

so timo,
rest in peace.
i'll never forget our 4 years together.
*i got him for my 20th birthday :D*

goodbye.
everyone.
and timo.
i will post, my next post, after this post.
:PP

"should we like, flush him down the toilet?"
-crabman :P

twenty-sixth

Because, I finally learned, FRIENDS, are NOT FOREVER.

tough lesson i learnt yesterday.
just, no matter how close we are,
he'll leave.
whether he wants to,
or is forced to.

during 4th period,
Modern Mathematics,
joe was called to the principle's office.
he came back during 6th period,
Psychology.

he just came back,
hugged me,
and whispered to me,
"I'm sorry".
and, he left.

just like that?
we IM'ed,
last night.
he told me,
his mom had to ship him to Australia,
"for better job opportunities"

and,
he came over,
last night.
right after the IM'ing.
it was fun.
he said he wasn't gonna be coming to school anymore.
we cried.
we laughed.
we danced.

it was our last night together,
i didn't go to school today,
i sent him to the airport.
i was okay,
i was fine.

until,,
until reality struck me square in the head,
i wasn't gonna see joe ever again.
we've been friends since kindergarten,
and, he's leaving.
he's leaving for good.
far away.
veryvery far away.

i broke down,
he did too.
again, we cried.
his flight was about to board,
we hugged,
for the last time.
he kissed my forehead.
i laughed.
and, he walked away,
not turning back even once.

but, i knew why he didn't look back,
it would've probably been too painful.
if it hurt me,
i couldn't imagine how much it would hurt an emotional guy like him.

so, he left.
he left.
the same words repeated through my head.
so, i left.

but, the last thing he said to me was,
"i'm leaving, taking with me all the memories we shared"
it made me sad.
he made it seem as though it was the end of the world.

now, i regret,
never doing all the things i wanted to with him,
when i think back,
at all the time we wasted,
how that could've been used for better.
*sigh*

also,
i just realized that,
i'll have no deskmate.
O__o

but,
i knew,
i knew it would happen one day.
i knew that one day,
he would leave.

i thought i was prepared,
but,
hey, turns out i wasn't.
but, at least,
i got to say goodbye.

JOEY, i'm sorry,
for all i've done,
i wished, we could spend more time together.
i never wanted you to leave.
but, sometimes,
reality has to be faced.
and, you took all the memories along with you,
i'll keep it solely in my heart.
i promise,
i'll never forget.