twenty-seventh

hey peeps :)
steve is finally updating.
awesome?
i think not.
this update, should be,
a very sad one.
:(((so, we start this post with a rabbit.
but, not just any rabbit.
this, is MY rabbit! :P
his name WAS timo.
unfortunately,
timo has passed on.
and, is now, in the hands,
of god.
*take good care of him, god*
:((

so,
the storyline.
i woke up in the morning.
went to the kitchen.
wanted to get some breakfast.
O__o

timo was happily "sleeping" inside his basket.
so, he slept.
and slept.
and slept.

i just decided he was sleeping too long,
so i decided to "try" and wake him up.
but, when i held him,
i couldn't feel his heart beating anymore
FTW? :((

he was such a happy rabbit.
always jumping around,
eating cereal.
pooping everywhere.
oh,
how much i miss those times.
it was all just like yesterday :(

but,
maybe it was yesterday
*shrugs*

so, timo, is probably now,
in heaven,,
happily eating cereal.
yes, my happy cereal rabbit :)

anyway,,
immediately after that,
i called crabman,,
told him it was,
"an emergency timo problem"
he came over half an hour later,
with dave
*rolls eyes*

he confirmed,,
timo,,
was in fact,,
dead.
*cries*

why timo, why?
why must you leave me alone??
*sigh*

so timo,
rest in peace.
i'll never forget our 4 years together.
*i got him for my 20th birthday :D*

goodbye.
everyone.
and timo.
i will post, my next post, after this post.
:PP

"should we like, flush him down the toilet?"
-crabman :P

twenty-sixth

Because, I finally learned, FRIENDS, are NOT FOREVER.

tough lesson i learnt yesterday.
just, no matter how close we are,
he'll leave.
whether he wants to,
or is forced to.

during 4th period,
Modern Mathematics,
joe was called to the principle's office.
he came back during 6th period,
Psychology.

he just came back,
hugged me,
and whispered to me,
"I'm sorry".
and, he left.

just like that?
we IM'ed,
last night.
he told me,
his mom had to ship him to Australia,
"for better job opportunities"

and,
he came over,
last night.
right after the IM'ing.
it was fun.
he said he wasn't gonna be coming to school anymore.
we cried.
we laughed.
we danced.

it was our last night together,
i didn't go to school today,
i sent him to the airport.
i was okay,
i was fine.

until,,
until reality struck me square in the head,
i wasn't gonna see joe ever again.
we've been friends since kindergarten,
and, he's leaving.
he's leaving for good.
far away.
veryvery far away.

i broke down,
he did too.
again, we cried.
his flight was about to board,
we hugged,
for the last time.
he kissed my forehead.
i laughed.
and, he walked away,
not turning back even once.

but, i knew why he didn't look back,
it would've probably been too painful.
if it hurt me,
i couldn't imagine how much it would hurt an emotional guy like him.

so, he left.
he left.
the same words repeated through my head.
so, i left.

but, the last thing he said to me was,
"i'm leaving, taking with me all the memories we shared"
it made me sad.
he made it seem as though it was the end of the world.

now, i regret,
never doing all the things i wanted to with him,
when i think back,
at all the time we wasted,
how that could've been used for better.
*sigh*

also,
i just realized that,
i'll have no deskmate.
O__o

but,
i knew,
i knew it would happen one day.
i knew that one day,
he would leave.

i thought i was prepared,
but,
hey, turns out i wasn't.
but, at least,
i got to say goodbye.

JOEY, i'm sorry,
for all i've done,
i wished, we could spend more time together.
i never wanted you to leave.
but, sometimes,
reality has to be faced.
and, you took all the memories along with you,
i'll keep it solely in my heart.
i promise,
i'll never forget.

twenty-fifth

PHOBIA.
i am scared of indian people.
weird right?
i am scared of their,,
teeth,
hair,
smell,
ALMOST EVERYTHING.
i sound simply retarded now.
O__O
*runs*

twenty-fourth

Warning: I did not write this to offend anyone at all. it's just a matter of opinion.

today,
i'd like to address the issue of homosexuality.
question on everyone's mind,
is it wrong?

for some people,
maybe.
everyone has their own opinions right?
but, in my opinion,
i don't think it's wrong.
it's not odd.
it's common in the real world now isn't it?

but sometimes,
i ponder,
why do some people,
hate gay people?

isn't it supposed to be normal by now?
it's not odd to see a swishy guy walking down the streets now isn't it?

homophobes;
people who are afraid or dislike gay people.
why do such people exist?
why do they hate gay people?
are gay people not humans as well?
do they deserve to be hated just because they are slightly different?
how would you like it if,
somebody went up to you,
and teased you just because you were a tiny bit different?
(for e.g, if you're a little bit on the chubby side)

wouldn't you get offended?
sometimes,
you just have to put yourself in other people's shoes.
again,
how would you like it if,
someone went up to you,
and called you,
names like, bitch, whore, ho.
you would so totally be offended right?

so,
conclusion,
nobody likes to be bashed.
end of line.

love has no boundaries;
of course.
i agree.
haven't you heard of weird stuff like;
siblings getting married?
twins getting married?
teacher and student relationships?

heh.
of course you have.
so,
if siblings can get married,
(who are actually related fully by blood)
why can't 2 people of the same-sex get married?
(who are not related by blood)

yes, yes.
i know,
god created,
Adam and Eve NOT Adam and Steve.
i get it.
i do.
but,,
but,,
but,,
i really can't oppose to that statement.
*sigh*
it is written in the bible,
and every other religious book that,
men and women are created for each other.
fine, controversy will arise.
i should not be talking about religion.
but face the facts;

sometimes,
people are just,
naturally gay.
what to do?
and, when they hear about how "wrong" it is,
they go into a state of depression.
and, then,
they "willingly" marry the opposite sex,
just so they are not labeled as 'gay'.
isn't that just cruel?
people make the term 'gay',
just sound so awful.
seriously.

so here,
i question,
is it wrong to marry someone you love?
or, would you much prefer to marry someone you don't and be unhappy?

it's a choice.
really.
it's either be true to yourself, or lie for the rest of your life.
decisions, matter.

in my opinion,
same-sex marriage,
is fine.
marriage is about love, not gender.
am i right?
and, according to a french saying,
juste une question d'amour
which also translates to,
it's just a question of love.

all i'm saying,
if you're happy,
go along with it.
it's not wrong to fight for your own rights.
everyone deserves happiness.
nobody deserves to be bashed for chasing their happiness.
don't force yourself into something you're not.
because all that would do,
is hurt yourself, and others around you.

and to all people,
"homosexuality should not be treated as a mental disease"
you can't cure it.
it's just natural.
you might pretend to be cured,
but in actuality,
you're not.
also according to another saying,
"speak loud and proud for what you are"

so,
some people may wonder.
why in the world?
would someone as goofy as me,
write something as serious as this?
well,
it's because,
something happened today,
a very serious matter actually.

my class was off to the lab for biology,
when we got back,
i was pretty shocked to see that a few places were trashed,
(a few as in, those openly gay people)
and one of them was crabman.
so, i got pretty pissed.
they were, scribbles on the table,
hateful letters,
torn books.
etc, etc.

and,
we found out who did it.
i think they had to face expulsion.
i wasn't sure.
anyway,
it was the same person who i bashed on post twenty-one?
yea, twenty-one.

crabman was pretty down.
but, we managed to cheer him up:)
but still,
i know the person reads my blog.
and, i hope my point is clear now to him.
he is kind of a dumbass.
so, yeah.
get it now JUSTIN?
O__O

anyway,
as i said before,
everyone has their own opinions.
and, i know,
i might be hated by a lot of people after this,
for expressing my positive opinion.
but hey?
i don't care.
he's my friend.
but i still wonder why they didn't do anything to dave.
pfft. :P

my post ends here.
thank you for listening.
and, to you, JUSTIN,
you can go die,
you're just one of those people,
when you die,
i won't give a damn.

steve is very frustrated.
people shouldn't be treating other people like this.
*groangroan*
P/S: no offence again. except for JUSTIN and his buds.
P/SS: I'm sorry if you hate me now. I just had to. for crabman :)

twenty-third

isn't Bahasa Melayu just wonderful?
hahaha,,
it's pretty much awesome actually.
and, joe did something pretty cute with it too.

i took a snap shot of it :)here it is. it says,, kasih sayang akan terus kekal dan tidak akan ditelan waktu dan zaman :)

aww,,
isn't that cute?
go joe!
no wait.
everything joe does,,
is cute.
why is this happening?!?!?!

but seriously.
language rocks.
all types of languages rock :DD
so far,,
i can't speak many but,,
i'm improving :))
*smileysmiley*

so, what has been going on eh?
nothing really.
crabman had a fight with dave again.
pfft, that's normal.
but, as always, they kiss and make-up.

joe looks like he wants to kill me.
and, he hasn't talked to me since yesterday
:(
*sadface*

jacob is now hanging out with me.
*recess!recess!*
i'm expressing my feelings towards him.
he's nodding.
i don't think he gets it.

did u know he likes potatoes too?
so, i bet team potato has a lot of people now.
O__o

anyway,
i got an A for Chem :))
whee!~
now, we have to complete this folio for Physics.
pfft.
i hate physics.
did you know,
some people go by,
"jealousy is the best policy".
wth?
that sounds wrong.
:DDD

is that it?
i think so.
oh yeah!
tomorrow for english,
we're playing "I've Never"
yay!

tomorrow, i'll tell you what went down.
okay?
TTFN :)

twenty-second

this post.
is a dedication post.
for,,
Nur Athirah Binti Sharon Nizan.
i bet you're reading this,
wondering what i'm gonna write about.
getting excited eh?
but, if you aren't,
you really should be.
:DDD

anyway,
last friday,
joe's diary was on his table.
i couldn't help but,
just, touch it.
so, i kinda flipped,
through the pages.
and, i landed on this one page.
it was very interesting.
it was actually really cute :P

but,,
yes,,
of course,,
he caught me.
so, i am forbidden to say anything.
but, i think you've got the clue right?
*winkwink*

so, i'd like to leave a piece if advice for Joey,
just talk to her.
she won't bite :DD
come on,
man up! :P
*smiles*
*grins*
*walks away*
*waves*

twenty-first

this post is dedicated to Mr. J*****
well, you know who you are right?

let me get this clear,
you're trying to say,
that I am the dirty bastard, who plays around with girls?

what have i done to prove myself to you?
what could possibly trigger that part of your mind to say something as stupid as that?
what did i ever do to make you say such things?

please,
explain to me,
step by step.
one by one.

you say you're so good at elaborating right?
so, please.
take the stage, and tell me,
why the hell you said such things?

please,
make me understand.
make me into a better person.
make me change.

i've been waiting for your answer,
for a whole week actually.

well, you've been going around,
talking shit about me.
but, when i ask you about it,
you go blur right?
you say you don't know.

so,,
if you're that scared of me,
why talk shit about me?

please understand,
you ARE younger than me,
by 3 years right?

anyway,
haven't you heard of a saying,
"respect your elderly"?.
i bet you have.
so, why don't you start implying it,
in your life,
before something really happens to you.

believe me,
you do not want to get on my bad side.
you still have a long way to go kid.
so, please, don't go spreading rumours about me,
because, it's just not funny.

but seriously,
the statement,
"steve likes to sleep around"

what the hell does that mean?
seriously.
i don't "sleep around".
i don't have a fucking girlfriend.
plus,
i've never had sex before,
so, how can I "sleep around"?

please,
ELABORATE.
tell me,
where the hell have you been getting all these?
i was called to the principle's office.
you have any idea how serious it became?

so please,
you,
just fucking stop.
seriously.
plus, my friends aren't very happy that you went through their stuff.
i mean, they really want to pound your ass.
so, back off.
just do.

if you have anything to say,
come up to me.
i won't eat you,
i won't beat you up.
don't go behind my back saying all this crap.

dude,
i don't know you.
you don't know me.
so, you better stop shitting about me.

so, MR. J*****.
leave me the hell alone.
and, i'll leave you the hell alone.
thank you.
agreement reached?