twenty-seventh

hey peeps :)
steve is finally updating.
awesome?
i think not.
this update, should be,
a very sad one.
:(((so, we start this post with a rabbit.
but, not just any rabbit.
this, is MY rabbit! :P
his name WAS timo.
unfortunately,
timo has passed on.
and, is now, in the hands,
of god.
*take good care of him, god*
:((

so,
the storyline.
i woke up in the morning.
went to the kitchen.
wanted to get some breakfast.
O__o

timo was happily "sleeping" inside his basket.
so, he slept.
and slept.
and slept.

i just decided he was sleeping too long,
so i decided to "try" and wake him up.
but, when i held him,
i couldn't feel his heart beating anymore
FTW? :((

he was such a happy rabbit.
always jumping around,
eating cereal.
pooping everywhere.
oh,
how much i miss those times.
it was all just like yesterday :(

but,
maybe it was yesterday
*shrugs*

so, timo, is probably now,
in heaven,,
happily eating cereal.
yes, my happy cereal rabbit :)

anyway,,
immediately after that,
i called crabman,,
told him it was,
"an emergency timo problem"
he came over half an hour later,
with dave
*rolls eyes*

he confirmed,,
timo,,
was in fact,,
dead.
*cries*

why timo, why?
why must you leave me alone??
*sigh*

so timo,
rest in peace.
i'll never forget our 4 years together.
*i got him for my 20th birthday :D*

goodbye.
everyone.
and timo.
i will post, my next post, after this post.
:PP

"should we like, flush him down the toilet?"
-crabman :P

twenty-sixth

Because, I finally learned, FRIENDS, are NOT FOREVER.

tough lesson i learnt yesterday.
just, no matter how close we are,
he'll leave.
whether he wants to,
or is forced to.

during 4th period,
Modern Mathematics,
joe was called to the principle's office.
he came back during 6th period,
Psychology.

he just came back,
hugged me,
and whispered to me,
"I'm sorry".
and, he left.

just like that?
we IM'ed,
last night.
he told me,
his mom had to ship him to Australia,
"for better job opportunities"

and,
he came over,
last night.
right after the IM'ing.
it was fun.
he said he wasn't gonna be coming to school anymore.
we cried.
we laughed.
we danced.

it was our last night together,
i didn't go to school today,
i sent him to the airport.
i was okay,
i was fine.

until,,
until reality struck me square in the head,
i wasn't gonna see joe ever again.
we've been friends since kindergarten,
and, he's leaving.
he's leaving for good.
far away.
veryvery far away.

i broke down,
he did too.
again, we cried.
his flight was about to board,
we hugged,
for the last time.
he kissed my forehead.
i laughed.
and, he walked away,
not turning back even once.

but, i knew why he didn't look back,
it would've probably been too painful.
if it hurt me,
i couldn't imagine how much it would hurt an emotional guy like him.

so, he left.
he left.
the same words repeated through my head.
so, i left.

but, the last thing he said to me was,
"i'm leaving, taking with me all the memories we shared"
it made me sad.
he made it seem as though it was the end of the world.

now, i regret,
never doing all the things i wanted to with him,
when i think back,
at all the time we wasted,
how that could've been used for better.
*sigh*

also,
i just realized that,
i'll have no deskmate.
O__o

but,
i knew,
i knew it would happen one day.
i knew that one day,
he would leave.

i thought i was prepared,
but,
hey, turns out i wasn't.
but, at least,
i got to say goodbye.

JOEY, i'm sorry,
for all i've done,
i wished, we could spend more time together.
i never wanted you to leave.
but, sometimes,
reality has to be faced.
and, you took all the memories along with you,
i'll keep it solely in my heart.
i promise,
i'll never forget.

twenty-fifth

PHOBIA.
i am scared of indian people.
weird right?
i am scared of their,,
teeth,
hair,
smell,
ALMOST EVERYTHING.
i sound simply retarded now.
O__O
*runs*

twenty-fourth

Warning: I did not write this to offend anyone at all. it's just a matter of opinion.

today,
i'd like to address the issue of homosexuality.
question on everyone's mind,
is it wrong?

for some people,
maybe.
everyone has their own opinions right?
but, in my opinion,
i don't think it's wrong.
it's not odd.
it's common in the real world now isn't it?

but sometimes,
i ponder,
why do some people,
hate gay people?

isn't it supposed to be normal by now?
it's not odd to see a swishy guy walking down the streets now isn't it?

homophobes;
people who are afraid or dislike gay people.
why do such people exist?
why do they hate gay people?
are gay people not humans as well?
do they deserve to be hated just because they are slightly different?
how would you like it if,
somebody went up to you,
and teased you just because you were a tiny bit different?
(for e.g, if you're a little bit on the chubby side)

wouldn't you get offended?
sometimes,
you just have to put yourself in other people's shoes.
again,
how would you like it if,
someone went up to you,
and called you,
names like, bitch, whore, ho.
you would so totally be offended right?

so,
conclusion,
nobody likes to be bashed.
end of line.

love has no boundaries;
of course.
i agree.
haven't you heard of weird stuff like;
siblings getting married?
twins getting married?
teacher and student relationships?

heh.
of course you have.
so,
if siblings can get married,
(who are actually related fully by blood)
why can't 2 people of the same-sex get married?
(who are not related by blood)

yes, yes.
i know,
god created,
Adam and Eve NOT Adam and Steve.
i get it.
i do.
but,,
but,,
but,,
i really can't oppose to that statement.
*sigh*
it is written in the bible,
and every other religious book that,
men and women are created for each other.
fine, controversy will arise.
i should not be talking about religion.
but face the facts;

sometimes,
people are just,
naturally gay.
what to do?
and, when they hear about how "wrong" it is,
they go into a state of depression.
and, then,
they "willingly" marry the opposite sex,
just so they are not labeled as 'gay'.
isn't that just cruel?
people make the term 'gay',
just sound so awful.
seriously.

so here,
i question,
is it wrong to marry someone you love?
or, would you much prefer to marry someone you don't and be unhappy?

it's a choice.
really.
it's either be true to yourself, or lie for the rest of your life.
decisions, matter.

in my opinion,
same-sex marriage,
is fine.
marriage is about love, not gender.
am i right?
and, according to a french saying,
juste une question d'amour
which also translates to,
it's just a question of love.

all i'm saying,
if you're happy,
go along with it.
it's not wrong to fight for your own rights.
everyone deserves happiness.
nobody deserves to be bashed for chasing their happiness.
don't force yourself into something you're not.
because all that would do,
is hurt yourself, and others around you.

and to all people,
"homosexuality should not be treated as a mental disease"
you can't cure it.
it's just natural.
you might pretend to be cured,
but in actuality,
you're not.
also according to another saying,
"speak loud and proud for what you are"

so,
some people may wonder.
why in the world?
would someone as goofy as me,
write something as serious as this?
well,
it's because,
something happened today,
a very serious matter actually.

my class was off to the lab for biology,
when we got back,
i was pretty shocked to see that a few places were trashed,
(a few as in, those openly gay people)
and one of them was crabman.
so, i got pretty pissed.
they were, scribbles on the table,
hateful letters,
torn books.
etc, etc.

and,
we found out who did it.
i think they had to face expulsion.
i wasn't sure.
anyway,
it was the same person who i bashed on post twenty-one?
yea, twenty-one.

crabman was pretty down.
but, we managed to cheer him up:)
but still,
i know the person reads my blog.
and, i hope my point is clear now to him.
he is kind of a dumbass.
so, yeah.
get it now JUSTIN?
O__O

anyway,
as i said before,
everyone has their own opinions.
and, i know,
i might be hated by a lot of people after this,
for expressing my positive opinion.
but hey?
i don't care.
he's my friend.
but i still wonder why they didn't do anything to dave.
pfft. :P

my post ends here.
thank you for listening.
and, to you, JUSTIN,
you can go die,
you're just one of those people,
when you die,
i won't give a damn.

steve is very frustrated.
people shouldn't be treating other people like this.
*groangroan*
P/S: no offence again. except for JUSTIN and his buds.
P/SS: I'm sorry if you hate me now. I just had to. for crabman :)

twenty-third

isn't Bahasa Melayu just wonderful?
hahaha,,
it's pretty much awesome actually.
and, joe did something pretty cute with it too.

i took a snap shot of it :)here it is. it says,, kasih sayang akan terus kekal dan tidak akan ditelan waktu dan zaman :)

aww,,
isn't that cute?
go joe!
no wait.
everything joe does,,
is cute.
why is this happening?!?!?!

but seriously.
language rocks.
all types of languages rock :DD
so far,,
i can't speak many but,,
i'm improving :))
*smileysmiley*

so, what has been going on eh?
nothing really.
crabman had a fight with dave again.
pfft, that's normal.
but, as always, they kiss and make-up.

joe looks like he wants to kill me.
and, he hasn't talked to me since yesterday
:(
*sadface*

jacob is now hanging out with me.
*recess!recess!*
i'm expressing my feelings towards him.
he's nodding.
i don't think he gets it.

did u know he likes potatoes too?
so, i bet team potato has a lot of people now.
O__o

anyway,
i got an A for Chem :))
whee!~
now, we have to complete this folio for Physics.
pfft.
i hate physics.
did you know,
some people go by,
"jealousy is the best policy".
wth?
that sounds wrong.
:DDD

is that it?
i think so.
oh yeah!
tomorrow for english,
we're playing "I've Never"
yay!

tomorrow, i'll tell you what went down.
okay?
TTFN :)

twenty-second

this post.
is a dedication post.
for,,
Nur Athirah Binti Sharon Nizan.
i bet you're reading this,
wondering what i'm gonna write about.
getting excited eh?
but, if you aren't,
you really should be.
:DDD

anyway,
last friday,
joe's diary was on his table.
i couldn't help but,
just, touch it.
so, i kinda flipped,
through the pages.
and, i landed on this one page.
it was very interesting.
it was actually really cute :P

but,,
yes,,
of course,,
he caught me.
so, i am forbidden to say anything.
but, i think you've got the clue right?
*winkwink*

so, i'd like to leave a piece if advice for Joey,
just talk to her.
she won't bite :DD
come on,
man up! :P
*smiles*
*grins*
*walks away*
*waves*

twenty-first

this post is dedicated to Mr. J*****
well, you know who you are right?

let me get this clear,
you're trying to say,
that I am the dirty bastard, who plays around with girls?

what have i done to prove myself to you?
what could possibly trigger that part of your mind to say something as stupid as that?
what did i ever do to make you say such things?

please,
explain to me,
step by step.
one by one.

you say you're so good at elaborating right?
so, please.
take the stage, and tell me,
why the hell you said such things?

please,
make me understand.
make me into a better person.
make me change.

i've been waiting for your answer,
for a whole week actually.

well, you've been going around,
talking shit about me.
but, when i ask you about it,
you go blur right?
you say you don't know.

so,,
if you're that scared of me,
why talk shit about me?

please understand,
you ARE younger than me,
by 3 years right?

anyway,
haven't you heard of a saying,
"respect your elderly"?.
i bet you have.
so, why don't you start implying it,
in your life,
before something really happens to you.

believe me,
you do not want to get on my bad side.
you still have a long way to go kid.
so, please, don't go spreading rumours about me,
because, it's just not funny.

but seriously,
the statement,
"steve likes to sleep around"

what the hell does that mean?
seriously.
i don't "sleep around".
i don't have a fucking girlfriend.
plus,
i've never had sex before,
so, how can I "sleep around"?

please,
ELABORATE.
tell me,
where the hell have you been getting all these?
i was called to the principle's office.
you have any idea how serious it became?

so please,
you,
just fucking stop.
seriously.
plus, my friends aren't very happy that you went through their stuff.
i mean, they really want to pound your ass.
so, back off.
just do.

if you have anything to say,
come up to me.
i won't eat you,
i won't beat you up.
don't go behind my back saying all this crap.

dude,
i don't know you.
you don't know me.
so, you better stop shitting about me.

so, MR. J*****.
leave me the hell alone.
and, i'll leave you the hell alone.
thank you.
agreement reached?

twentieth.

so, yay.
my twentienth post.
and, new layout.
start of something new?
maybe:)

anyway,,
new rules.
you can now comment on my posts:DD
so, please do.
as you wish
but, please no anonymous comments
(well, unless your name is anonymous :P)

and, if u want to post something for EVERYONE to see,
then, do it on my cbox
(okay joe?)

hehe.
the layout's really simple.
but believe me,
it took me a hell of a long time to do that thing up there.
O__o

it's not the best i've done,
but i realized that my computer was really slow,
so, i couldn't do much,
or it'd get stuck :(
haha,,
anyway,

to hanis:
i really really really,, wanted to add ur photo. but you weren't online, so, i couldn't make aida steal any of your photos without permission :((( very, very sorry.

to shy and danny:
yes, i had both of your photos. but, hey. it didn't fit in :( again, sorry!~

so.
hope u guys forgiveme.
:DDD

commentos por favor.
:) hahaz

okay,
TTFN.
byebye. :)

nineteenth.

i changed my blog layout.
to a much simpler,
yet needed one.
so, hope u all can adjust.
have to change my c-box place.
:((

trying to spice it up a little bit more,
so, check back later :))

eighteenth.

today,
we went on a field trip!~
:PP

on the bus,
i sat next to joe:)
as usual :P
crabman was with jacob,
cuz, dave was mad at him for calling him a B****

so,
on the bus.
the girls from the other classes kept throwing pieces of papers folded into hearts,
some saying,,
WE LOVE YOU.
YOU'RE NOT THAT HOT.
YOU'RE SUCH A SEXY B****
ookayy,
thankies.
i really appreciate it.
i laughed when one of them said,
"this one's for joe *muah*"
joe LOL'ed too.

jacob kissed me in the bus.
weird.
it was so sudden.
when the bus stopped at the red light,
he got up and just kissed me,
on the lips.
O__o
of course,
crabman,
being his usual,
had his outburst,
which was,,
"STEVE'S GETTING MARRIED TO A GUY"

there was one girl,
who shrieked and threw her sandwich at crabman
:DDDD

other stuff happened too like,,
dave falling off his seat.
joe stripping
O__o
(yes, stripping)

then,
we got there.
i had no idea where we were.
all the teachers said were,
"it's to improve your english!".
okay, teach, what ever you say.

then, the teacher's made us form groups of 5.
i saw one of the older girls wink at me,
simply, i smiled,
looked away,
and made a scared face to joe.
O__o

so, i quickly ran off to jacob and crabman,
joe following behind me.
i thought we already had 5 people in our group,
but, well, dave wasn't there.
:(((

"DAVE! CRABMAN SAYS HE'S A SH*T!", joe yelled.
and, as fast as lightning,
dave was in our group.
yay!
quick thinking joe. :))

yeah,
then, crabman and davey kissed and made up.
aww, great for them:)

after all that was settled,
the assignments were given.
we actually had to,,
i) create a poster
ii) create a poem
iii) create a story

that's it.
pfft. what does this have to do with medics?
O__o

teacher explained,
that this would be included in one of the inter-university competitions.
oh,
no wonder.

we didn't care until,,
the teacher told us what the 3 winning groups would get,
which was,
10 extra credits for each subject.

ohmiegawd.
10 credits would be enough to pass,
but another extra 10 would be fantastic.
no way i could fail the final semester.

so, we were determined to win.
we quickly divided the tasks,
and got to work.
joe was poster.
dave and crabman were song.
(they just seem inseperable don't they?)
me and jacob were story.

hah.
as easy as pie.
so, me and jacob worked on it,
worked on it,
worked on it.
it turned out,
quite okay.
:DDD

so, after everyone turned in everything.
the teacher's said that the results would be posted on the school website.
what?
school's website?
lame.lame.lame.
:PPP

might as well just post it on myspace :DDD
bahahaha,,,
anyway,
they were posted just now.
turns out,
there were FIVE groups that won.

*sigh*
unfortunately,,
our group
*cries*
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
got.
.
.
.
.
.
.
second place
:PPP
haha,
just wanted to keep u in suspense.
funfunfun.
10 extra credits for each subject.
whee!
>.<

"do poo-ems need to rhyme?"
-crabman
(pfft. poo. :P)

seventeenth.

PICTURES! :DD

no, i wasn't in barcelona. just wanted to do it for fun. (took hours though :P)

it said no touching but i couldn't resist :DD

*viewview*

more view ^.^

cutest dolphin i've ever seen. (think i'm in love <33)

OCEAN SUN FISH! :PPP

ya,
that was it actually.
:DDD
that was my european trip around the world :DD
(that sounds dumb :P)

JOE'S CORNER..

okay.
this is now,,
joe's corner :PP
it's all the photos he took during the semester break:)
he says he wants to,,
"promote his talent" to all who reads my blog.
but, i don't get why it has to be in MY blog?
O__o
BTW, there are some photos of jacob.
(he's kinda included in our little gang now)
before i get to the pics,,
i have to warn you,,
that joe's photography,
is EXTREMELY,,
SPECTACULAR.

now, the photos,,

we start, with SHOES! (steve likes bluee)

WARNING. NEXT ARE STEVE PHOTOS. O__o


no, this photo is not the same as my myspace ones. tyvm. (they're just at the same place :P)

i don't like close-ups. they're mean! but, hey, everyone has one. :PP

okay.
that's the end if all photos with me in it.
*whew*
what do u think so far?
it's kinda nice eh?
but, i still don't like the close-up shot
O__o
and, did u realize he signs all the photos?
(look at bottom right corner :P)

okay.
next are,,
dave's photos!
woot!~
:DDD

there you go. next one is the close-up. :)

pfft. he looks better in this close-up. hahahaa :D

okay, they look amazing. in this picture. :DDD

dave has a bunch of diff. hairstyles.
hahahahaaaa.
:DDD
next is,,
crabman!~
(i have a feeling that this is gonna be a long post)

okayy..crabman looks just WAY too innocent doesn't he? O__o

pfft. what's up with the black and white joe? O__o

kay.
last person.
jacob,,
>.<

so, this is the guy i made out with. new kid in school :PP

okay. i agree joe. his close-up is the best :)))

BONUS PIC:

ahh. edward cullen-ish. hottest pic out of them all. :P
nice one jake :DD

okay.
i'm exhausted.
it's 3 a.m.
joe's quite happy with his work.

so,
i'd like to give him a round of applause.
for his awesome job.
:)

BUDDY

final note from joe: this was taken throughout may to december.

no stealing.

if u want to, ask steve.

:DDD

ciao!

sixteenth.

hey guys.
everyone who reads this blog of mine :D
anyway,
i was thinking of changing my blog layout.
what do you think?
still, i don't think this layout is suitable for a 24 year old, soon to be graduating doctor :PP
(haha, perasan)

so, as for my previous post,
hehe.
it was all actually a big mistake.

now, i shall start;
EXPLAINING!
the story goes like this;

steve was sadly sulking in his room, when, joe bursted into his room, "HAPPY ANIVERSARY BUD!". (again joe, how many times must I explain that I am NOT a bud, i am quite happy to be human). he brought a cake and tons of chocolate. he told steve about the H1N1 thing, and, gladly, he said that he'd never leave steve's side. ILY JOE<3

suddenly, phone rings. steve greets the person on the line. the person says, "MR. VALERIANO, you DON'T have H1N1!". steve was like, crapping in his pants. O__o

turns out, the person was actually the doctor. so, the doctor says that steve merely has the case of Avian Influenza a.k.a H5N1. (hehe)

apparently, somebody had tampered with the test results and fortunately, the have already been caught. he then told steve to eat lots of fruits and prohibits him to eat ANY chocolate. *sigh*

steve and joe immediately starts jumping around like a bunch of deranged monkeys. until, joe asks, "WHAT THE F*** AM I GONNA DO WITH ALL THIS CHOCOLATE?"

hahaha.
so, that was the story.
it was actually a big whole misunderstanding.
pfft.
maybe that's why i felt disease-less.
???

anyway,
random pictures coming up,
it was me at one of the beaches in europe.
:DDD

bye. :P

"because hey-, isn't chocolate your true love?"
"no, it's cereal O_o"
-joe and steve

fifteenth.

this week.was.a bad week.

i went to czech republic.
to visit my friend,
Guti Haaz,
(yeah, that's just a nickname :P)
because,
he just moved there.

so, got on a plane.
i started feeling ill though.
but, i just shrugged it off.
thought it was just jet lag.

so,
got to see Guti,
said bye.
went around shopping,
met Nadia,
(my cousin)
and went back to the hotel.

then, i just,,
started throwing up.
no reason.
i just felt so dizzy,
and light.
as soon as i realized,
everything went black.

when i woke up,
it was 4 days later,
and, i saw my parents,
nadia, and guti.
my mom was crying.
and, i didn't know why.
i just assumed..
i was dying.
so, i cried too.

then, the doctor came to me when everyone else went to get lunch,
he told me that,
i had H1N1.
(pfft. talk about getting sick)
and, i was at the third stage.
he told me that,
the virus spread silently throughout the 1st and 2nd stages.

i was,,
kinda surprised.
i never expected to even get it.
then, the doctor said,
that,
my chances of ever getting to become a doctor was pretty thin.
like 5% thin.

i nodded.
not quite sinking in yet.
i felt fine.
just a bit dizzy.
how could i have one of the most deadliest diseases in the world,
when, i feel so,,
okay.

my mother gave me a necklace.
she said it always made her healthy when she was sick.
she put it around my neck.
i'm still wearing it now.
and, yes,
i feel great.
like i'm disease-less.

can this be my punishment?
for not obeying god's orders?
or is this a blessing?

one thing my dad said was,
'God works in mysterious ways'.
and, i feel,
no, i believe,
that everything will be okay.
just fine.
i just know it.

so.
i hope this explains why i haven't been updating,
or to school.
i apologize, but, i'll be in school by next week.

good news is that,
the doctor said,
my H1N1 wouldn't spread very easily,
because, it was already in my blood vessels.
and, if only i were to make out wif somebody or spit at their faces
(swapping of saliva),
that's when the person would get infected.

anyway.
i'm out.
waiting for my airplane.
malaysia here i come!

"I took a picture with a random stranger,
is that WRONG?"
-guti haaz:)

fourteenth.

2009 is ending.
fast.
i'm hating it.
but, i actually am very proud of myself.
:)

because,,
i fulfilled my 2009 resolution!
awesome :DD

my resolution was:
i) Lose 15 pounds (7 kg)
ii) Get a B or higher for Psych
iii) Go to Genting :))
iv) Earn more than $250 ( RM 1000)
v) Make new friends
vi) Learn how to ride a bicycle
vii) Tutor juniors
viii) Dump girlfriend (now my ex-gf)
ix) Get a new apartment
x) Make a new blog

altogether,
10 resos :)
and, i accomplished them all!
woot!!

no. 1,
lose weight.
yeah, i was fat :P
like,
210 lbs fat.
so, now.
i am 180 lbs which is,,
81 kg. :)))

no. 2,
B or higher for Psychology.
and, i got a B
(so did my whole class :P)

no. 3,
Go to Genting.
and, i did just that.
and met wonderful and awesome people :DD

no. 4,
Earn money (RM 1000)
yup.
i worked at a local hospital as an intern :P
it was fun!

no. 5,
make new friends.
such as,,
aida, athirah, jacob, shy, hanis, merr,
and etc's.
heh.

no. 6,
bike riding!
joe taught me!
yay for joe!!

no. 7,
tutor juniors.
yeah, i did!
i tutored Ty and Josh
in,,
CHEMISTRY.
wtf?
i suck at that.
but, hey.
whatever.
earned some money for that too :P

no. 8,
ditch ex-girlfriend.
mhmm.
her name was nat.
she was mean to me.
she talked bad about me behind my back :(
then, she cheated on me with shawny.
(it's okay shawny, i forgive u :D)

no. 9,
get a new apartment.
yup, got a better one.
plus,
it's near merr's apartment :P

last one,
no. 10,
make a new blog.
here it is!
haha.

anyway,
those were my resos.
and i finished them all!
so,
did you?

quote of the day:
"What the use of naming people, if you give them nicknames anyway?"
-dave :)))

thirteenth.

god, another semester of this and i'm done!
one semester = 3 months.
so, just 3 more months till i can work in a real hospital :)
and, help people!
that'll be a good feeling right?

anyway,
we had extra classes today.
yeah, only our class.
cuz, we had the lowest grades in psychology.
so, from 8 a.m. to 2.30 p.m.
(which is like 6 and a half hours)
we studied psychology for a whole SIX HOURS.
and we thought we were gonna go psycho :(

mhmm.
that's what happens when the teacher gets pissed at you,
for getting straight B's.
:(((
sadsadsad.

anyway,
during break time,
at 10.30 p.m.
i was sitting at the back with joe, jacob, dave, crabman, scott, danny, daniel, sam, ash and shy.
yes, i memorized,
because, i realized that these were the people whom i played truth or dare with.
(except for jacob of course).

and they were all staring at me weirdly.
joe was like,
looking at me, then jacob, then me, then jacob.
and kept doing that for a whole 10 MINUTES.

i finally realized what he meant when sam made a kissy sound.
i cringed my face and looked at jacob who was sitting next to me.
i was thinking what i should do,

i) ask him first.
ii) just go in for the kill.
iii) wait till next time.

and,
i think he realized how weird i looked and laughed.
he said,
"i accidentally read your blog post yesterday. i thought it was part of the assignment or something".
"oh. really?"
"yeah. i'm sorry".
"nah. it's okay".
"so, just do it then".

my eyes widened in surprise.
i thought,
'he wasn't serious right?'.

"on the lips steve, on the lips.", joe repeated.


F you joe.
you don't know how hard this was.
O_o

jacob looked at me and nodded with a smile.
he said,
"whenever you're ready".


"steve. 5 seconds", ash said.
right.
the kiss had to last 5 seconds.
fine.

let's just get on with it.
i heard dave whisper something to crabman,
but i couldn't really make it out.

so,
i just went on.
slowly i just leaned in,
and pressed my lips to HIS.
it was awkward at first.
but, weirdly,
he kissed me back.


and also,
i did something pretty gay.
i put my hands on both sides of his cheeks and deepened the kiss.
how gay is that?
O_o


conclusion is that,
we made out.
simple.
i didn't expect it.
but, we did.


i finally pulled away,
when i heard the girls giggling and the guys laughing their asses off.
(yeah. there were girls. 3 of them. shy, ash and sam :P)


when i pulled away,
i saw him blushing.
and, i didn't realize that i was too until danny teased me about it.


so, everything it settled okay?
finito. :)

that was the outcome.
i'm glad it all worked out.
oh yeah!
when class started at 11.10 a.m.,
the teacher actually said,
"so, i hope everyone has already finished making out".
eveyone who saw the "making out" laughed their butts off.
daniel fell of his chair.
haha. hilarious :)))


FTW?
he saw.
joe told me that while we were "ehem",
the teacher walked in and was wide-mouthed.
and,
he quickly exited class and went away.
:PPP


and,
joe also told me that dave timed the "ehem"
(yes, i don't like saying the word anymore)
and, he said that we -ehem- for a total of,
45.3333333 seconds.
awesome eh?

anyway.
kissing a guy isn't what bad.
it was just,
kinda awkward.
and people may assume that you're gay.
but, wth?

okay.
that's enough for today.
oh yeah,
i finally realized why women were better than men.
(we debated on it for a whole 2 and a half hours :P)

time to go now :)
TTFN.
:DDDD

"OHMIEGAWD. STEVE KISSED A GUY!!!"

crabman's outburst.

it was funny :P

twelfth.

i'm dead.
i mean,
dead dead dead.
x_x

wanna know what happened?
sure,
it all started today.
just a few minutes ago actually.

so,
it's just one of those days that u have to stay in the computer lab to complete your assignments.
but we,
yes, the whole class.
never does the assignments,
but instead,
we take it as an opportunity to,
go on myspace and facebook and twitter.
(BTW, what is the deal with twitter? everyone seems to like it so much.)

and,
i, being a good boy,
decided to,
go with the majority.
:)))

so, you know,
it's like a computer lab,
with lots of rows.
and each row has like,
5 computers.

so, as usual,
everyone takes their usual seats.
my seating is as the following:
-empty-, steve, joe, crabman, dave.
(from left to right)

everyone's minding their own business.
i'm reading people's blogs.
joe and dave are tweeting.
and crabman is watching some weird dancing show.

so, our little group,
actually has some back-up.
what do i mean by that?
for example,
teacher suddenly pops up in our row,
we'll just minimize our current program,
and there'll be the assignment teacher gave us.
and it'll be half done.

so, when the teacher's go,
"what are you boys doing?"
we'll say,
"i'm almost done. just halfway more to go!".

and when the teacher disappears,
we'll go back to whatever crap we were doing before.
:DDDD

so,
while minding our own business,
we heard the teacher cough,
so, we all look up from our "assignments",
and see the most,,
gorgeous looking boy we've ever laid eyes on.

crabman bangs his head on the keyboard and said,
"am I dreaming?".
dave just kept staring.
joe and i were like,
nodding our heads.

then,
the teacher started introducing the boy.
turns out,
he was a new student in our class.
O_o

his name was,
Daniel Jacob Jason.
sounds kinda classy huh?
he was pure british.
and he likes potatoes.
he can be the other member of team potato.
:PPP

anyway,
joe kept poking me and said,
"remember what you have to do Stevie".
i was like,
"what do i have to do?".
and crabman suddenly screamed out,
"TRUTH OR DARE!!!!"

everyone immediately turned around to look at the commotion,
crabman was covering his face with one of his books.
haha, funny.

but then,
i finally realized why he screamed out "truth or dare".
because we played that game a few weeks ago.
and i think scott dared me,
to kiss the newest student in out class.

so,
since "this" guy was the newest student,
i had to kiss him.
O_o
me (boy) kiss him (boy).
wouldn't that be gay?

dave blurted out,
"that would be so gay".
exactly what i was thinking dave.

then,
the teacher said,
"Mr. Jason, why don't you take a seat next to Mr. Valeriano over there".

and joe just started giggling.
slowly, he walked over with a smile.
i find him quite attractive actually.
(no joe. i am not turning gay)

he then sat down and said,
"Mr. Valeriano. my name is Jacob.".
i stared at him weirdly and started nodding.
"don't call me that. i'm Steve".

"steve. okay."
"yeah"
"so, what do we have to do?"
"oh. it's on the board".
"oh. thank you"
"STEVIE'S GOT A NEW BOYFRIEND!!!!"

what in the world?
i looked at joe and he was pointing at crabman.
"WHAT THE HELL CRABMAN?!?!"

outburst.
sorry new kid.
didn't mean to scare you.

i turned back at jacob and apologized.
"on the lips steve, on the lips"
joe whispered to me,
immediately earning a smack on the head. :)

"nah, it's okay"
"you know, how about i take you on a tour around the school?"
"that'll be awesome"

we're now new friends.
or,
are we?
or,
am i just his tour guide?
whatever.
another hour of sitting next to him.
hope he doesn't see me typing this.

and...
CRABMAN is wheezing.
DAVE is paying no attention to anyone but twitter.
JOE is staring at the new kid, and tweeting bout the new kid.
STEVE is writing this blog post.
JACOB is doing his assignment.

that's what everyone is doing.
i'm freaking out.
i have to kiss him.
FREAKING KISS HIM.
O_o

out now.
post later on the outcome :)

eleventh.

aida, i'm happy for you. :)))
joe, stop singing, please.
athirah, talking to strangers is okay. :P

P/S: this is not the topic of the post..

this is..

BICYCLES!

odd topic?

not really.

it's significant :)

it really means something.

because today,

i learned how to ride a bike :)

mhmm.

thank god.

cuz, there was gonna be a biking expedition.

and i was like,

"CRAP. i don't know how to ride a bike".

fortunately,

joe, was kind enough,

to give me a few lessons.

and hey,

i picked up fast.

riding bikes isn't so hard eh?

mhmm. :)

but,

i fell.

once.

my knee bled.

a little :(

joe was like,

"Dude, are you okay?"

and i was like,

"pfft. yeah."

but on the inside i was like,

"Motherf***er. This really hurts".

and joe was like,

"i can tell you're hurting man. let's get back home okay?"

i just nodded.

but it was all an experience.

at least now i have the basics,

and WON'T embarrass myself in front of other classmates.

(except for Joe)

thanks man. i really do appreciate it. :)

that's it then.

i ought to go.

byebye :D

tenth.

yay!
my tenth post :)
what to talk about today?

*brainblast!*
let's talk about my relationship.

now,
that just sounds weird doesn't it?
*blamedave*

practically,
in class today,
Dave has been bugging me about my BLOG.

he just keeps asking,
this,
and that,
and more of this.
so, let me explain.

no.1,
Aida: just a girl i met in genting, i happen to get along very well with her actually :)

no.2,
Athirah: she's one of aida's cool frens. mhmm. we happen to like bananas. :P

no.3,
Hanis: yeah, she's another one of the above's frens. she happens to be pretty awesome :D

that's it right?
now, to clear up MY friends.

no.1,
Joe: yeah. he's my idiot deskmate whom i love veryveryvery much. he also likes bananas.

no.2,
Crabman: he's the person who sits behind me. he also happens to be aida's faraway neighbour.

no.3,
Dave: and, this guy. is the person who sits behind joe. he is also one of aida's faraway neighbours (cuz Dave and Crabman live together).

that's it eh?
nothing else.
no confusions.
i'm not dating anyone from the above list(s).
okay?

good.
i bet we've reached into an understanding.
on to my next post. :PP

Ninth.

wee!!
i have more followers :P
when is JOE gonna follow my blog?
O_o

anyway,
i am annoyed.
today,
something happened,
in class.
i had to stand up and write a 20 page essay about electrolysis.
FTW?

so,
now,
i blame,,
BLOGS.
and MYSPACE-S.

you wanna know why?
it all started during period 8.
yes, just another hour to go back :P
anyway,,
teacher (Mr.Stoch),
oh my god. i truly do hate you teacher :((((

was explaining on what our projects were,
for the next term.
so, i was listening.
listening.
listening.
listening.
BOREDOM.

i decided to go on myspace.
heck,
anything would do.
so, i opened,
AIDA'S myspace page.
waited for it to load.

then, i opened 2 other people's blogs.
first.
ATHIRAH.
second.
*coughscoughsdeskmateJoecoughs*

and,
BOOM!
at one time,
the music started playing.
there was owl city,
and adam lambert,
and metallica.
all at the same time.

you cannot imagine how bad that sounded.
and, it was at full blast.
motherf$%#er.

now,
how was i supposed to know that,
the speakers were at full blast,
AND
the songs were set to automatic.

teacher totally caught me freaking out.
and told me to stand.
he then said,
"what is that? metallica?"
and i'm like,
"adam lambert, owl city AND metallica."

BAM!
extra assignment comes in 20 pages.
and joe,
who sits next to me,
can barely suppress his laughter and starts laughing his ass off.
he then earns a 5 page essay on gonorrhea.
hah!
take that!~

so,
here,
i'd just like to say,
JOE,
i hate you,
and,
you deserve it.

but, i'm not that mad at the other two.
teacher could barely hear your songs.
it's joe's metallica.
@^%@^!&!!!!!

i'm annoyed.
at auto-play songs.
i advise,
either you stop autoplaying it,
or just,
put it on the down low.

anyway,
i'm writing my essay in BIG FONTS.
hah!
serves you right teacher!

anyway,
i'm out.
peace out, :)

Eighth.

Hey you,

you're now a year older.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

this is dedicated to,

my friend's friend,

Hanis Syahira Binti Hamdan.

ahah!

more wrinkles.

:P

but still,

it brings you a step closer,

to independence.

i hope you like the pic of your birthday cake,

UP THERE.

anyway,

i know you don't know me quite well,

but one's birthday should be celebrated by all :)

so, i hope you and i,

can get to know each other better.

plus,

you seem like a cool person.

actually,

all of aida's friends are cool people.

(including you!)

haha.

so,

again,

i'd like to wish you,

A VERY,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Seventh.

BANANAS.

CEREAL.

I AM TORN BETWEEN MY TWO BIGGEST LOVES.
CEREAL AND BANANAS.
AHHHHHH!!!!!!
WHICH ONE DO I CHOOSE?!?!
(Joe, I blame you)

Sixth.

Okay.
Let me just say,
i hate girls.

okay, well.
not all girls,
let me be specific;
random stranger girls.
no, not all of them.
but the,
random-stranger-girl-who-thinks-they're-so-hot-but-not-and-start-giggling-everytime-you-glance-at-them.

yes,
those types.

i just decided to type this because,,
YESTERDAY,
when i was at the camera convention,
there were a few girls, winking at other men,
and giggling to themselves.
that time, i was just waiting for my movie to start eh?
so, i decided to go to the exhibition downstairs.
which was when,
i saw THEM.
they winked at me and started giggling to themselves.
my little bro was then long gone staring at all the diff. types of cameras that were there.
i smiled back,
i mean, what else could I do right?

anyway, i then decided to go to the toilet.
i felt as though someone was following me and when i turned around,
i saw,,
THEM.
again, i gave them an awkward smile and wuickly proceeded to the bathroom.
i just ran into one of the stalls an dlocked myself in.
"STALKER,STALKER" was all I was thinking to myself.

fortunately, when i got out of the bathroom,
they weren't there anymore :)
WHEW.

so, i went back to go get my brother.
it was almost 4.30 then.
and, my movie was going to start at 5.
so, maybe i thought we were going to grab some McDonalds or something.
then, i saw THEM staring at me,, AGAIN.

i got freaked out and dragged my brother to McDonalds.
after i got my orders,
i turned around, and saw THEM again.
WTFFF?!?!?!!!!
they were as usual giggling to themselves.
and i could hear a few words like,
"attractive, sexy, rape, rape, rape"

why in the hell was the word "rape" there?
AHHH?!?!?!!!!
i told my brother to quickly finish eating and when he did I picked him up and ran up to the cinema.
he looked freaked out too and I said,
"there are people who want to rape you!"

he started making his sad faces
and i couldn't help but feel sorry.
so, i said,
"nah. I was just kidding. noone wants to rape you. but people want to rape me, so I'm running okay?"

he then became his normal self again.
hooray :P

then, we got to the cinema.
"God, stupid girls" I whispered to myself.
then, we saw, Aida and her sister.
so, we went and sat next to her.
I then told Aida about what happened,,
and all she said was,,
"psycho lahhh".

finally it was 5.
the gates were opened.
so, we went inside to enjoy our movie.
premiere class ;P
hahahaaaa.
and thanks again aida for the free tickets :)
i love u <3

so, freaky random strange girls.
if u ever read this,,
STAY AWAY FROM ME.

and advice to other girls,
don't ever be as stalker-ish as they were.
cuz, it freaks guys out. okay?
TTFN :)

Fifth.

Good morning everyone.
no wait.
it's not morning anymore.
Good afternoon everyone.
Hahahaa.

I'd just like to address a few issues today.
No.1 , thx very much to Athirah
for the reply post.
It's rare that someone evr does that for me.
Even Aida doesn't.
so, thanks a bunch :)

No. 2, OHMYGAWD.
my final presentation is in monday.
do i hv everything yet?
yeah.
i just have no fucking idea what in the world to say.
O_o

No. 3, Aida.
Thanks a lot for your movie invite.
(we went and watched twilight!)
My lil bro and I had a lot of fun.
And yes, the ending totally sucked.
"Bella, marry me".
That's it?
Lamest ending EVER.
And, thanks for buying the tickets for us. :)

No. 4, myspace got deleted.
haha.
yeah, my ex did that too.
she's going psycho.
OMFGGG.
i'm freaking out,
O_o

that's it.
i guess.
i'll have to go now.
bye,,

Fourth.

Ahh.
I have been so busy.
My freaking finals are in a week.
FTW?

So, I've been ultra-busy.
table's a mess.
wanna see?

like it?

yuppers.
and when this happens.

this happens:
stress.

after that,
we do crazy stuff like:

jumping off bridges.

and then,
we do something to release the tension,
which is:

ballet?

and in the end.
it all comes down to doodles.
and i came up with this,,,

steve + joe forever.

see how much i appreciate you joe?
and yes,
you make me smile,
with ur big head.
thanks a lot for being my friend.
i heart you lots.

tht's it then.
i was just bored.
that's all.
ciao!

Third.

This is dedicated to my friend's friend,
Nur Athirah Binti Shahron Nizan?
(soso verry sorry if i spelt your name wrong)

Thanks so much for the blog invite.
I really appreciate it,
as a thank you,
I linked you!~

Hope we can become better friends okay?
And, hey!
I like Chelsea too.
:P

Michael Ballack fan?
If you are, high five.
*prepares high five*

peace out.
hope you get to read this :)

Second.

Despair.
I'm desperate.
I followed my own blog.
That's so weird.
Hahahaz.

Anyway, I heart colour pens ya' know?
they're cool.
and colourful.
and as everyone knows,
colours make the world go round :)
and so does smileys.

yeah.
they belong to me.
hahahaaa.



hahaha.
that just means,
"my name is steve".
in spanish though.

yeah,
that's what happens when,
boredom takes over during class
when the teacher is trying to explain
why the heart stops when you suffer
from electrocution.

mhmm.
i was just totally bored.
so, i did that.
okay.
that's it then.
see ya'!